i saw my younger crush and felt all guilty again because i rejected him and he has started to avoid me. eventhough that,i dont hate him and i still smile at him. the thing that gave me a slap on my face when i smile at him is that, he shows me the fucked up face and a smirk. is it such a bad thing being rejected although i am still being nice to you and treating you as a friend? i can't reciprocate back or it'll be a one-sided love and it'll be unfair. this isn't only to one person but two. fuck. crazy bodoh. it is as easy as not to like anyone because in the end you're the one feeling suckish and acting like you have a small dick. im in a mixture of feelings. im not sure whether i should feel angry,sad or pity. somebody get me a sunflower. :(
