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Monday, January 18, 2010
So,home is where i live right? what i've realised is that,i never remember anything good about my home. its very saddening. its as if my whole life has been so preoccupied with school and friends i dont even have space for my home and family. its weird how i think that way. everybody in my house treat home as a shelter and live the rest of our lives outside. get what i mean? i don't see my mother or father very often nowadays. its so complex to explain their life. the situation is getting bad to worse. when i say this, i should feel sad because chaos is going to happen. but my heart is so relaxed about it. i've been stuck in this problem so many times. and right now this has become a normality. i dont have that kind of love towards my parents. i gave up dealing with my parents eversince the last war. i was too hurt to hear such nasty sayings from my own father. my heart has been stabbed often that i'll take everything as nothing to me. as the eldest among my siblings, i find it very hard to reason things. i can't always be the one to be blamed when i in the first place is not involved in any matter. after this, i cant help to think about anything else except God, Siblings, Friends, School and my Bright Future. i've fallen hard on the ground that i cant stand up.