im really afraid about the sana course. everyone seem to be talking about it. and talking about it tells me that its important. which i didnt really get to finish it up. oh no. no badge for me. such a shameful pig i am. i am concern with what im given. bt not till this. grr! what im really afraid is,no promotion for me. oh no.please no. i've done nothing to show my sirs i can do it. the parade. the enthusiasm. hais. i've got nothing to hope for. well its okay. maybe i'll try to put in more effort in everything i do. i dont want to be left out in any of it.
vesak day today. and later im going to watch Pirates of the Carribean. weeha! i should enjoy to let off my anger towards myself. hmm,have fun mates!
